To love

I think I will stop "loving" anyone. I probably felt it all along, but refused to see it directly. The fact that "I love you" is such a heavy thing to say. So heavy, its weight is not something I dare to shoulder. It is pure cowardice. It is kind of stupid that I decided... Continue Reading →



Still failing to do what I must, but will have to continue trying anyway. Also, I noticed one thing. Many of us live by following groups --- we follow what majority does. We like what others like, which in turn puts us in good position to maintain conversation and sustain interaction. When you are not... Continue Reading →

Left foot forward

I wonder if yesterday counted as putting my left foot forward. For reasons I could not fully understand, I called my parents and a friend. I have never done this to my friends for very long, let alone my parents. The conversation with my parents was short, which is not that surprising really. The "stalemate"... Continue Reading →

Reset button: 5 Jan

School was open two days ago on Wednesday, but I guess I overslept due to my internal clock being badly asynchronized with the Sun. When school properly starts next week I cannot afford to wake up late anymore since some classes start early (even if Sun is just up in winter). So I thought I... Continue Reading →


Happy new year to me, I guess. And to everyone. This year had been difficult. I lost nearly all my "passion" in physics and mathematics - or rather, my reason of "living" near the end of my undergraduate education. It all comes down to how theoretical physics and pure mathematics were things I chose to... Continue Reading →

Two days

I stopped working on Wednesday, and I did finish my assignments early. I spent the entirety of Thursday and Friday just sleeping and gaming. It was both tiring and restful at the same time. For one, it has been a long while since I just did whatever I feel like, without much care about tomorrow... Continue Reading →

Last work week of the year

Took two days "break" - mostly gaming, reading manga, though did bits of work that hardly amounted to anything. Actually, it might have been a while that I took a proper break in the sense of just doing whatever I like (I played Zestiria which turned out better than I thought). The past four months... Continue Reading →


Saw a post on Facebook few minutes ago, about how a professor advises students on how to fail their PhD. One of which seems to be hinting at the fact that graduate students should not be working "9-to-5", like in office hours. It struck me very hard, though. While I know life is hard in... Continue Reading →


Before anything, I guess I ended up buying a laptop. It would definitely be a good investment on all counts, but definitely a bad choice in the sense of self-control. Must be partly my gamer-self pushing me to it. Hope it ends up in good use for work as well, since it is powerful enough... Continue Reading →

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